it's over. move to somnia.

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Quitting: a Quandary

I don't really care either way about my job. It's not sucking the life out of me, but it's not really fulfilling or interesting and I'm pretty sure it won't lead to anything better. I've been telling people for a few months now that I'm going to quit and look (at my leisure) for something better. Maybe even take a couple of weeks to travel, seeing as I have a bit of savings. I've been making more noise than usual recently.

Last week, I had an interview with the City of Berkeley for a job with better salary and benefits than I have now. And hours. Oh, and duties. Oh, and a better location (I'd be able to bike to work!). From the sound of the interview, I appear to have a very good shot at being offered the position.

And yet, I don't know. While it would be masterfully cool to tender my resignation for my current job and in short order receive this new offer, I can't make the plunge. Maybe I need the security. Maybe it's the way so many people wrinkle their brows and say, "In this economy...." Maybe the Berkeley position will fall through and it'll take a long time to find something else that I deem appropriate. Maybe it's an odd sense of guilt about voluntarily leaving something (a living wage, a comfortable desk job) that is out of the reach of most Americans. Maybe (and worst of all) I just can't shake a sense of loyalty to the company that underpays me, that offers nothing in the way of mentorship, and that I leave (too late) at night, more often than not feeling bored, drained, or confused.

So, for the time being, I'm staying put.

(But when that offer comes, I'm outta here.)
peachy as always, Mike at 1:05 PM